"#thatawkwardmoment"

The popular trend on twitter these days is '#thatawkwardmoment" and there are dozens of hilarious phrases that follow. But have you imagined your life being in a continuous state of being in '#thatawkwardmoment"? Well, I guess I am now.

Its been a few months since I have been talking to someone I dearly like. And not to make myself come off too obvious as a loser, let me put it this way - "there has not been any reverse transition or retort in mannerism to reveal any sign of mutual consent to a question that was raised to said recipient, prior to the aforementioned refutation".  "#thatawkwardmoment" number 1.

So, being an optimistic opportunist, I decided to stick around and hence became "The Friend".  "#thatawkwardmoment" number 2, well, atleast for me it is. So, I went along this uncharted path and began being involved with what was happening around even to the point when the dear lady decided to get herself a love-interest. "Yay!" on the outside, "Boo!" on the inside. "#thatawkwardmoment" number 3.

So I decided to ease up knowing that they should not be bothered as much. "Be there when dear lady needs you", I keep reminding myself. Knowing dear lady, she wouldn't miss me at all. And so, a thought became reality and months passed without any contact. I wasn't missed but she was.

"#thatawkwardmoment" number 4 came when I decided to mend bridges and text her. Dear lady decided to label my return as "crawling back" and I accepted with much repudiation. What other options did I make myself to choose from. I was the one who instigated the second half of our contact.

I now became truly in the friend zone and perhaps no way back. But it was good to hear her voice. The best thing about dear lady is that she has the ability to mentally block out anything she does not desire or the things she consider not worth remembering. And so, much of our prior association was put in a deep freeze. 

To put it short, I now am the go-to guy and recently have picked out dear lady's gift for her boyfriend, not my proudest moment to be truthfully honest. Most guys would have jumped out at the first sight of my "#thatawkwardmoment". And sometimes I think to myself, either I'm really stupid or insanely enchanted. Either way this "#thatawkwardmoment" is here to stay on for a while....unless, dear lady reads this blog and then cut off again, which would be another "#thatawkwardmoment".